I am angry, very angry
Angry at the world
Angry at life
Angry at everything

I am bitter, very bitter
Bitter you’re not here
Bitter you’re no more
Bitter you’re gone

I’ve been angry, just angry
Angry I couldn’t stop time
Angry I couldn’t heal you
Angry I couldn’t save you

I’ve been bitter, just bitter
Bitter I had to let you go
Bitter I had to watch you go
Bitter I had to say goodbye

I’ve been angry, still angry
Angry because I miss you
Angry because I need you
Angry because I ache for you

I’ve been bitter, still bitter
Bitter I lost my role model
Bitter I lost my best friend
Bitter I lost my biggest fan

I am angry, very angry
Although you wouldn’t want me angry
Although you wouldn’t want me sad
Although you would want me happy

Written by Mariam Shittu

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8 Comments Add yours

  1. Mo' says:

    Mariam with the gifted hands. I need to come and learn at your feet oh Marian.

    Beautiful post dear

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  2. Damn felt the emotion
    This was really good

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  3. The repetition just drives home the consuming nature of the emotions here. Well done.

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Smitha V says:

    Can feel the frustration, the pain of losing someone close. I felt exactly this way when I lost my mom. I am sorry for your loss Mariam.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. My emotions have been all over the place. It’s nice knowing someone understands exactly how I’m feeling. Thank you!

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  5. Smitha V says:

    May God give you strength to get through this. Tc my dear. Xxx

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  6. susanspecs says:

    I lost my mom two months ago, and this post best describes how I feel. I couldn’t put it into words myself
    Thanks mariam

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    1. You’re welcome 😊

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